Sometimes it's better to push something away. Not because you stop caring about it. But because you have to shield yourself from pain. 

Now. Feels like all my bones are worn down and my skin is so thin. I'm energy depleted and dehydrated.
Hoping so much to never be fractured, or broken, again.  
Hoping that I was magically made of those things that cannot be seen from the outside.
I was shattered inside yet am trying so hard picking myself up. No matter how hard it'll take.